My Love Story: Countless Chances Part II

A/N: Please do not read this post if you haven't read the previous two chapters. For your easy reference, you may click the link below :-)

Chapter 1: My Love Story: The Beginning

Chapter 2 - My Love Story: The Start of Countless Chances

Chapter 3: My Love Story: Countless Chances Part I

April 3, 2013

6:00 PM - I have a bad day and Jocilia just texted me if I'm okay. And I told her that I'm not, she's trying to help me to get rid of it, but I'm totally messed up that day. I thank her for that but just ended our communication just so quick!

6:30 PM - When Jamie called me thru Skype. She was really gorgeous and with those blond curly hair and just a simple make-up - she's really stand out for me and I love the way she smirk. She was really captivating. She makes my day but I don't know, I feel more of her than my present girl friend. 

7:30 PM - I'm about to eat my dinner. Alone. When my phone rang and I needed to picked it up, it was my office mate. Kennex. He invited me and the rest of my office mates to join him to his birthday party and everyone agrees. So, I don't have a choice but to join the gang. And I immediately change my clothes, get all the stuff I need, then I'll go.

8:00 PM - when I finally meet them. It was a disaster - I must say, but I've latter meet a new girl. She's cute, she's seems demure and she's sweet. "A perfect girl just for me" - I told to myself. And suddenly, we both have almost the same attitude and plans for our lives and so, I stay connected with her.

April 4, 2013

12:00 AM - when everyone is already drunk and guess what, I'm one of them. Drinking the last bottle of beer and I guess I really need to go to the bathroom to take away those nuts and excess drinks. I must say I was in total mess. But I just felt that someone touch my back, it was a smoothing hands with sweet caress. Oh yes! It was her. The sweet girl I've met. She smiles at me and told me that I really need to go home and for some reason, my body instantly want to go home. 

12:30 AM - When I finally looked over the familiar building structure, oh yes! It is my boarding house. Finally, I can now have rest and oh my God! I didn't asked for her number and everything went black. 

7:30 AM - Suddenly hears my alarm. Holy cow! It's almost 8:00, I still need to prepare my breakfast, need to take a bath but when I woke up, I feel a very dizzy. "Hang-Over!"  - as I told to myself. Trying to be firm and strong, do the things that I must do and then leave my room where I didn't eat my breakfast. 

8:25 AM - finally ready for the day. 

4:30 PM - when I already arrange my table because the time is almost over. Been busy with those tour inquiries and plane tickets copy. Just about to put to my cabinet when someone just come over, the most black and shiny hair I see for my entire life, those red heart-shaped lips and cute  shaped face with a cute little dimple in the right face. I thought it was a customer, so what I did, I arrange the chair immediately, trying to look smart and then smile. When I'm about to ask, she told me "Stephy" - like what the hell? her voice is really familiar. I just look at her with a very strange reaction in there then she chuckles and said " Nice to meet you - drunk boy?". Oh yes! it was her, the girl in the bar, the girl who's hand is like the hand of an angel. So I smile back at her and told her "Orlan. And nice to meet you too". Then she waited for me until my duty is over. 

5:30 PM - she invited me to go a shopping mall. I agreed and then we really do have a good time. My money is just good for me but she really gladly took all the expenses because according to her, I'm her type - "What????" - I told to myself. "Your type?" - I asked her again. "Definitely" - she answered and then I told her, no one gonna like me. I'm slim and with a 5'3" height, with a very Filipino type of skin "Brown", with a brown eyes and very baduy type of fashion. But hell, she say I'm her type, so I was flattered and can't say anything. I just return the favor and told her that she's my type too. So we both good and everything is just a history.

9:00 PM - when I just look at my phone. My God, I forgot Jocilia. I know she's mad at me. So I tried to call her and asked her if she's mad, but she say no. She really have a patience for me. But I think I have to end up our relationship, I'm not good to her. I lied to her. I stop caring for her. I just don't love her. My feelings for her is now gone. It was not good but I need to tell her. And I texted her about the things that I'm doing but she's still okay with it, so long that she have me and I have her. But it was totally over for me. So I decided for the both of us. I said we're over and she just accept it. 

- Fast Forward -

December 12, 2013

4:00 PM - when I hand over my resignation letter. I can't live to a city, I feel that if I will stay for a little bit longer, I would die because of the changing of temperature - it's killing me. So I decided to go back to my hometown. And by the way, by this time, Jamie and Stephy is long gone. We don't have any communication. At All. And I'm preparing for myself to go back to my real home. 

7:00 PM - when I have my dinner. Someone texted me. It was her. Jocilia. And it seems that everything back. My feelings, my admiration for her, my love for her. I know I still love her. For almost 5 months of being single I think I wanted to win her back. So I replied to her text. I know it was supposedly happy but those happy mood turns into something else. She told me that she will have a summer vacation to her aunt. And guess what, it is in the city where I presently working. But what else I can do. I just wishes her the best of luck and still have 3 months to spend with her before she finally move to this hot place. 

10:00 PM - we both ended our conversation with "I love you". Yes, we're in relationship again. Because according to her, she just waited for me. And now that I'm coming back, she'll back to my arms again. 

January 30, 2014

4:00 PM - when I finally say goodbye to my fellow office-mates. It was just a fair goodbye, I guess. But everything is just normal. 

6:00 PM - Finally I stepped on the bus going back to my hometown. Just really excited to see my family and of course, Jocilia. And since it is a 3-hour ride so I decided to sleep for a while. 

11:00 PM - when I finally got home. Put all my bags and then sleep. Ready for a new life in the morning. And the night is just so cold that's why I really have a very nice sleep. And texted Jocilia that I got home safe with a smile emoji. 

January 31, 2014.

7:00 AM - Jocilia texted me that I should take my breakfast, I smiled looking at her text and then with a beautiful sunrise I tried to make may day as fruitful as it is. 

12:00 NN - when I try to call her and she's having her lunch. Seems that her voice is really happy and I wanted to make her happy too. That's why I told her that I will be visiting her, to her house and she said yes. By the way, this time, her parents know that we are in a relationship. And thank God because everything is under control now. 

4:00 PM - at her house. Everything is doing great. Telling her stories about my life in the big city and how hard it is there. She's just listening to me, just like a little sister and I just love her smile, her voice, her being. I just love her more today than the past days of our lives. And I told to myself. I'm now home.

7:00 PM - needed to go home now. Just show respect to her parents by telling them that I need to go. To her siblings and of course to her. Just about to leave then she kissed me on my cheek. And I froze. It was the best kiss ever. My heart pumps so fast, my brain is like freezing and I can't just talk! I looked at her and touch her face telling her that I will leave. She just nodded. Then I leave her outside her house. Until I reached home, I still touching my cheek. It was the best! Then sleep. 

April 3, 2014 

6:00 AM - she texted me that she needs to go. I don't know, but I really don't want her to go but that's for her future, for her life, for her dream. So I just needed to support her, because I cannot give the financial support. So I just reply to her that she should take good care. And then reply with me with a heart emoji. 

2:00 PM - when she call me and told me that she's already on her aunt's house. Thank God she's safe - as I told to myself. Later that time, when we continue to communicate to each other and to check on her from time to time. Because I don't want to skip any detail of her life. I know she feel the same way when I was also working on that city. And now the table is turning - as I speak to myself. 

May 13, 2014

10:00 AM - I opened my facebook. Someone chatted me, it's my highschool classmate. I replied to him until we came into the conversation that I never expected.

"By the way, Orlan I have a question" - he asked me

"What is that?" - I replied

"Do you know Jocilia?" - he asked me again

"Yes. I know her so well. Why?" - I told him

"Lan. What do you know about her?" - he asked

"She's really sweet, caring, thoughtful, she's a wife-material for me" - I told him

"Really?" - he wants to make sure of it

"Yes! but why?" - I asked him again but this time it's not a good feeling

"Because I asked her for a date and she said yes to me. I'll be back to Cagayan de Oro to meet her" - he told me

"A date?" - I angrily asked

"Yes! And she seems very excited about it" - he told me

And then he confirms that she's courting Jocilia and she's okay with it. 

Authors Note:

Continuation will be soon released. Please stay tuned!

My Love Story: Countless Chances Part I

A/N: Please do not read this post if you haven't read the previous two chapters. For your easy reference, you may click the link below :-)

Chapter 1 - My Love Story: The Beginning

Chapter 2 - My Love Story: The Start of Countless Chances

December 31, 2012

9:00 PM - Preparing for the New Year's Eve. Everyone is busy while me, looking at my phone smiling because we had a time for each other to talk about things and what our plans for the upcoming year. Again, it was fun and I don't want to end that happy moment.

10:00 PM - While everyone is busy for the new year's eve. I was one of the coordinator of our family reunion at the same time exchanging of gifts. Been busy and didn't notice her texts.

11:30 PM - At last, I already finished. Doing all the stuff for the new year's celebration. I can feel that everyone is excited most especially my little cousins. Can't help but to feel excited also.

11:49 PM: A text message coming from her saying "Happy New Year Bhe :-) May you have a very bountiful year ahead, a happy life with me and more love to share. I love you" - then I replied to her the same thought with the same mood. It was a fun New Year for the both of us.

January 1, 2013

10:00 AM - I woke up very late. Then seeing all of her sweet messages. Then texted her if I can come to her parent's house. Then she said yes.

10:26 AM - When I came to her parent's house. Her parents was not around. We're all alone. Silence makes the atmosphere more interesting yet making me feel like something's gonna happened. We are on their dining area, eating the food she prepares for me. She's very caring and sweet. That smile, it makes me feel like a real man. I want to kiss her. I want to hug her. Then a sense of romance comes to my body and let my hand extends up to her face. That very special moment.

10:33 AM - I was shocked when bunch of children (my church mates) catches my eyes and attention. That romantic moment slowly fades. Going back to our normal position. We are laughing because we know what just happened to us. Then I just smile at her. One way saying "I love you very much".

4:00 PM - When I decided to go home. Leaving her a warmth smile. Loving her is the most beautiful thing that happened to my life. She's my life now. That's why I wanted to uplift my career because I wanted to give her the best life she really deserved. I know, everything might change in the future but as of now, I wanted to love her, the best way I could.

~The day ends. But my love her will never fades.~

January 2, 2013

5:00 AM - When I needed to pack up my things because I needed to go back to Cagayan de Oro. It was really hard for me but I have to, I need to. Because it's the only way for me to have a better life. As I hear my father calling me because we really need to go. I felt like I'll be leaving them for a long time and don't know when will I came back.

5:06 PM - When I came across Jocilia's house. Hoping that I can see her before I finally go but I think they're still sleeping. Then I just left. Sadly.

6:30 PM - I just left the office. Finally got in my boarding house. Put my bags, sit on my chair, looking at the ceiling. Silence is slowly killing me. Then I just realized that I haven't checked my cellphone yet. 8 Missed Calls and 10 Messages. Coming from a single familiar number. Jocilia.

6:48 PM - Immediately called her. I apologize for not taking all of her call but she understands. That's what I like her the most, she easily understand.

7:30 PM - When we ended our conversation. And now. I missed her more. I felt like killing inch of my happiness. But still, don't have a choice. It was a very lonely night for me :-(

3 Months After. . . .

April 2, 2013

6:00 AM - I received a call from unknown number. It was a long distance call. I immediately answer the phone, wishing that a familiar voice may registered into my ear but there's isn't. I can hear a slang voice of a woman from the other line. Then I remembered my friend from Texas, she's the one calling. She asks me if I'm doing fine and she also asks me if why I didn't went online for almost 3 months already. Then I replied to her with a monotonous tone. We ended our conversation with a very big smile on my face as she tells me that she missed me a lot and wanted to talked to me everyday.

11:00 AM - When I noticed that Jocilia is calling me. I took up the phone and talked to her but it ended with a frown on my face. "She's talking like a child again" - I told myself. By the way she just turn 18 years old that time, so what should I expect? But hey! by the way for 3 months, we've had a not so good communication that's why there are really times that I felt really irritated once I hear her childish tone. But still I love her.

12:30 PM - Just finish my lunch at office. An unfamiliar receive calls tone from my phone began to ring. As I looked at it, it was my Skype. A named "Jamie" was on the screen. It was her!. An exciting feeling crawls upon my body. I press the accept option. Then we started a great conversation.

6:00 PM - After work. I received a call from a long distance number again. I know this is Jamie then I accept the call and there she is! That smooth and relaxing type of voice. It just catches my attention. And the start of a friendship that makes me feel relax when me and Jocilia is not in good terms. 

My Love Story: The Start of Countless Chances

November 23, 2012

A/N: Please don't continue reading this if you haven't read the First Part :) The link below will take you to the first part of "my love story" :) 

My Love Story: The Beginning

6:30 PM: It was a heartbreaking scene for me. I feel lost and broken. That guy on the line, I wanted to kill him. But I just pause and understand the situation, then I gave up. Dropping that call wont never relieved the pain but I need to moved on. 

8:00 PM: Her number flash on my screen. My tears kept on rolling to my eyes. But still, I accepted her call. 

            "Hello?" - she greeted me with a soft voice 

            "Oh! It's you then! How was your day with your BOYFRIEND??!" - I greeted her with an angry tone

            "Sorry" - she replied

            "Nothing to say sorry :-( , it was your decision then, I am just ONE of your BOYFRIEND, if you feel that I'm useless, then you can leave me like this" 

              Then I ended the conversation.

9:17 PM: An unknown number. I immediately picked up the phone. An unfamiliar woman voice from the other line. Immediately I asked: "Who's this please?"

                "Hi, this is Jocilia's Friend" - she replied in a very soft voice

                "Oh! What makes you call? To explain on Jocilia's side. Don't bother anymore. I understand" - I replied in a calm tone

                "No! Ahmmm, actually Yes" - her shaky voice tells me that I need to hear the other side

                "Alright, I will give you time to talk" replying her with a very relax tone

               "I just want you to know that I was there when Jocilia is trying to explain to you on the guy that you talked a few hours ago. But I guess, you didn't let her explain" - that words somehow hit me because I do, really , didn't give her a chance to explain. That was the truth.

               "Why should I let her explain? It was obvious! She cheated on me. She has a boyfriend and I don't need any explanation to that. I'm not that stupid!" - some strong voice is coming out through my mouth

               "No! It's not her Boyfriend. Believe me! That was our classmate, someone who has a crush on Jocilia but Jocilia didn't bother to Entertain him" - her explanation continues as if she's the lawyer

               "Yes! I really don't believe you"

               "Please. I know it hurts you so bad but I'm telling the truth"

               "Alright. Let's just say, I'm buying that words-of-mouth. Then how did that guy get the phone from her? It's just so simple, she agrees to it and she knows that the guy is using the phone"

               "Yes. She knows that the guy is using the phone and she knows that the guy called you. But there's a deeper reason why she just let the guy do that"

               "Then tell me now! I don't want to wait for another lie"

               "She's. Afraid" 

               "..........." then silence begun to interrupt.

               "Hey! Still there?" 

               "Ye. . .ah, Yeah! What did you just tell me again?"

               "She's Afraid"

               "Afraid of what?" 

               "You know that Jocilia is still 17 right? Her parents still don't know that she already has a boyfriend. And if they are, Jocilia will be dead. Did you get what I mean?"

               "Yeah! I clearly understand what you mean but. .why does she needs to say "YES" to me that moment that I courted her, when she still not have the permission to have a boyfriend yet?"

               "I think Jocilia will be the one to explain that to you. But for now, I just wanted you to know that it was not her boyfriend"

End of our conversation. . . .

November 24, 2012

7:00 AM: When I just heard my mother calling me because we need to do something important. I immediately jumped from my bed. It was a bad morning for me. I was tired. I only have few hours of sleeping. And I was heartbroken. 

7:30 AM: Hoping that I can receive any message coming from her. But it was in vain.

7:45 AM: Still waiting for her message. . . .

7:50 AM: Still waiting maybe she calls me. . .

8:00 AM: Tears began to fall. As I waiting for her text. 

4:00 PM: I went through my grandparent's store and wanted to buy something. My day was totally ruined. I don't know what to expect. And as I already brought the snacks for myself. I saw her from a distance. I wanted to talk to her, I wanted to ask her the truth, I wanted to. . . .bring her back to me. Just like the last time. But I rather not. . .and need to face the truth. .the truth of being cheated and the truth of being broken. .

9:00 PM: I received a text message. It was from her. But it breaks my heart more as I read her text message saying: "I'm really sorry :-( ".

I already don't know what happened next. Because the last time I remembered. I was lying . . .

CRYING :-(

December 5, 2012

6:30 AM: I woke up with a very big smile on my face. Because I realize, I already moved on. Thanking God for everything He done to me and thanking everyone who always there to support me ~ through prayer.

8:30 AM: While eating. My phone rang. Hurriedly press the "accept" option. Then a familiar voice started to registered on my ears. 

                "Gelie Babes!" - as I greeted the woman in the other line

                "Lan :) How are you?" She asks me with a very joyful voice

                "I'm good :) How about you?" I replied to her

                "Well, still okay"

                "By the way, what makes you call?" as I asked her with a surprise tone

                "Lan! My boss wanted to hire a Reservation Officer. Are you willing to accept it?"

                "Really? That's sounds cool. When is the Interview?"

                "On Saturday. Can you come?"

                "Sure! Please give me the address"

                  After giving me the complete address and some instructions. Our conversation ends.

December 8, 2012

1:00 PM: I called my parents to give them a good news!

December 10, 2012 - Start of Something New

Side Note: I was hired in Wow Camiguin Travel and Tours. It was a fun experience at the same time I learned to finally get over with her. Trying to be busy with my work and my new life. It really helps me a lot. 

December 24, 2012 - Night before Christmas

6:00 PM: I was busy preparing for our Chapel Christmas Party. I need to see my fellow youth members because we need to practice for our intermission number. I'm wearing white t-shirt ( the first time I wear such color in our Christmas Party), with black jeans and white shoes. I'm prepared.

6:30 PM: When I was going to church. Our eyes accidentally met. I was mesmerize and shock. Don't know what to say  or what to do. Then I decided to give her a smile. 

8:00 PM: End of the mass. While everyone is so excited, I felt so nervous. "I need to be confident" - as I told to myself because I'm going to be the Emcee for tonight's event. With a big sigh, the program was formally started. 

8:30 PM: During the Christmas Party. I didn't notice that I seated beside her. That happy moment became more extra special because I hear her saying "You look good tonight" - with a sweet smile on her face. I was shocked but intentionally not to be obvious that's why I gave her a smile. 

11:00 PM: When the party is almost over. But I can still see her looking at me, just the way she looks at me before. When we are still in relationship. But didn't bother myself and just enjoying what I'm witnessing at the moment. 

December 25, 2012 - Christmas is Here!

12:00 AM: Everyone's rejoicing. "Merry Christmas" :-). Then I saw her face again. While everyone is enjoying the most beautiful season of the year. While me. Staring at her, wanted to feel her face again and wanted to say "Merry Christmas" to her. But I'm speechless. Words don't came out. 

12:30 AM: When I saw her going out of the chapel with her family. I don't know but I felt really bad. I wanted to talk to her and ask her if I can court her again. But I was afraid to do so, that's why it was ended a slight sad Christmas for me.

Days flies so fast. . .

December 29, 2012 - 2 Days before New Years Eve

4:00 PM: Going home from Cagayan de Oro (where I'm currently working) there's a text message coming from Jocilia. It was a Inspirational Quotes on how should I face my New Year. It all started back again. Fun conversation with fun memories to reminisce. 

7:00 PM: When I get home. Still continuing texting her then I brought up if I can court her again. She said yes. I was really happy and excited. 

Before the night ends. I win her back again, for the second time. And I feel that she will be in my arms forever. . .

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Spoiler Alert for the Next Update!

    "I think we need to end this relationship"

    . . .End of Conversation. . .

Stay tuned!

My Love Story: The Beginning

September 5, 2012

3:30 PM: My phone rings and I picked it up. . . "Hey Best! What makes you call?" - I asked my best friend who's busy preparing for his Birthday. "Can you come here tonight? We prepare a dinner for my birthday :) " - he answered. "Of course! I can come! You should give me something good to eat, okay?" . -End of Call -

7:00 PM: Going to my best friend's house. Smiling, until I reached his home. Quite numbered of People, thanks God, there was a chair available on their garden, so I decided to sit.

7:15 PM: Someone's calling. It was my best friend! I pick up the phone and greet him with a very happy tone. But something's not right, it was his cousin. Jocilia. Telling me that dinner is ready and my best friend is waiting for me.

7:20 PM: The dinner is set and people are now starting to get their own plates and utensils. It was a night full of fun and great venue for sharing of memories.

8:30 PM: When I decided to leave my best friend's house and Jocilia went after me. Since my house is nearer, we choose to separate ways but Jocilia didn't know that I was looking after her and make sure that she reaches home safe.

9:27 PM: I received a text message coming from my best friend and he dare me to court Jocilia in exchange for a snack (it was just for fun. I know it's not good but it really happens sometimes)

9:43 PM: When I decided to accept the challenge.

9:55 PM: Me and Jocilia is having a text conversation about the birthday party and any other stuff - it was fun talking to her but the challenge is still on fire.

10:15 PM: When I started courting her. For sure, she was surprised and by the way she's 17 years old that time - no experience in dating and relationship yet, but I use it for my personal interest ( again, i know it was not right but for the sake of fun. Please don't imitate such bad deals with best friends.)

11:00 PM: When she said yes and she's now my official girlfriend. And I won the deal. More excited with the prize rather than with my girl.

September 6, 2012

7:00 AM: When I was still sleeping and hear my phone rings, "I've got a message" - excited to see who's the person texting me. I thought it was my best friend telling me where will I get my Prize, but it was Jocilia - greeted me with a big smile emoticon. "Oh! I forgot! She's my girlfriend already!" - so I send her a good morning with a smile emoticon - one way of telling her that I've got her message and it was okay.

9:00 AM: Before I ate my breakfast, another text message flashed on my cellphone screen - it was her again, telling me that I should ate my breakfast because she cares. A warmth feeling sooth to my skin. Then my heart tells me that I should take good care of her.

11:00 AM: Busy texting with her. It was a fun and happy conversation between the two of us. Then we decided to end our conversation because I need to prepare for our lunch.

12:00 NN: While busy preparing for our lunch. Jocilia texted me again, telling me that I need to ate my lunch. She's really a sweet person. But still needs to prove my feelings for her.

2:00 PM: Busy with watching horror movie, when I receive another text message. It was my best friend this time, telling me that my prize is already prepared and I need to fetch it to his house.

5:30 PM: Jocilia asking me if what I'm doing then I told her that I need to finish some of my work. Then she understand me and wait until I'm okay.

7:00 PM: The dinner is set. Pulling my chair and then sit. Get the plate, fork and spoon and started to eat my dinner.

Time flies so fast. . .

11:00 PM: She texted me "Goodnight :) I love you. . .". Then I didn't reply because I don't know if what should I reply to her. And wanted to tell her that it was just a challenge and we need to stop. But it breaks my heart. I don't want to hurt her. So I decided to continue our relationship, wishing the somehow I can learn to love her also.

October 5, 2012

6:00 AM: What an early texts from her. Greeted me "Happy Monthsary Bhe :) ". I was shocked and didn't know it coming. Then I realize, one month already - one month of a lie, one month of pretending and one month of a fake relationship. But still. . . I continue. . .

4:00 PM: I texted her to go to our chapel because I wanted to see her and personally greet her for our first monthsary but deep inside I wanted to break her that time.

4:30 PM: I've waited for her and then, there she is, wearing a white dress that looks so beautiful to her, with her smile and great looks, I felt like I wanted to marry her. Then it was the time that I knew to myself that I'm starting to fall in love with this girl. She's innocent, she's pure and she definitely gives me a chance to be happy with my life. She's my girl now and I wanted to make her as mine.

5:30 PM: We need to go home now. And I escorted her until she's home.

It was a great day for the both of us. Now that I'm in love with her. I know that it was started in a rude challenge but I didn't regret :)

More months later. . . .

November 23, 2012

6:00 AM: Waking her up by texting her. Texting love quotes and telling her how I love her. It was a morning that full of love and romance for me. It was a happiness overload. I really love her.

6:00 PM: I'm little bit worried because I can't contact her. Her phone is always busy. Don't know what to do- I'm clueless, I felt really nervous.

6:30 PM: Her number registered to my screen. I immediately accepted her call. It was a man's voice. My hand is shaking, I don't know what to do. My heat breaks into pieces. But still holding my temper and ask the man behind the line. "Who is this?" I asked him. "I'm Jocilia's Boyfriend, who's this please?" - Then I dropped the call. . .



Authors note:
  It's still not the end of the story. This is the first part. Hopefully, you will still wait for the next update. Thank you for dropping by and hope to hear your comment :)


Disclaimer: The names that has been mention in this post are all real. And this is my real love story.

When my Faith began to Fall

I was born as a Christian who always taught to be good and be simple in which it really guides me to become a person with dignity and a person with strong belief in the power of one true God. And all of these years where I already been connected in my religion, my faith began to grow and my existence began to finds its meaning because of the Faith that I plant in my own designed journey. 

It has been 6 years of offering my 100%  service to the Lord and with that 6 years of continuing living and embracing the religion that I have, I was then feel at ease and comfortable with my world where I choose to live my own life and my own joy ride. 

But just recently, as the month of December enters, I don’t know what happened but I feel that my Faith starts to fall – I just came across my line of faith and my line of survival, where the needs of my being a human lies above rather than the needs of my own soul.

Maybe it’s a part of the process and I should give more time to talk to my God and to spend time sharing moments with my family though my problem involves money, I guess it’s about a time to be with them as always because I do believed that family solves problems and family restores every chaotic imbalance that are happening to our lives. 

The deadline of my money problem will be on Monday, December 15 and I’m doing everything just to solve this problem and even if I felt that my faith lessen, but my full trust to my savior will never fade and I stay positive even to the midst of my personal problem. And with complete prayers, help coming from my family and friends, this money problem will soon be done, through the goodness that my faith will produce by the help of the Holy Spirit and my Lord, Jesus Christ and my father, God this will be gone in just a simple blink of an eye.  

And I know that God will always be with me and to those who believed in Him, just keep on holding and let’s survive this together. 

To God be the Glory.

Please pray for me. Thank you

LUCY: The Movie that Strengthen my Faith and a Movie that Really Worth your Time

“Life was given to us a Billion years ago, now you know what to do with it”- Lucy

This is one of the most brilliant phrases I ever heard in a movie and this makes “Lucy” to be the movie that really worth your time. 

There are already thousands of movies that you can see in theatres and in tape – there are horror, suspense, action, drama and many others and the movie Lucy already mixed all these genres that literally I described it as an extremely powerful entertainment. 

The movie “Lucy” expand the meaning of life and expand the meaning of existence where it explains really the reason why we have time and why we should value time, as I share this great line in the movie; “Time proves our existence” that through time, we used to know what life really means and why we should always take care of our time. 

But with the whole smart and intelligent conception that the movie is pointing out, for me, it still stop in unexplainable concept of what we called as “Religion”. Because in the last part of the movie, when Lucy reaches the 100% of her Cerebral Capacity, she disappears and when the police officer asks the doctors/professors if where Lucy is, Lucy, herself, reply to him in a text message saying “I’m Everywhere” in which it clearly pointing out strongly in saying that “Lucy” is somewhat like the concept of the Christians most powerful being and that is “God”. In which it seems that God is the only being that possesses the 100% of the cerebral capacity. However, there’s still a great scene in the movie where Lucy explain some of the life point and she make the car as an example. That according to her, the faster the car moves the higher chance that it will disappears that no one can ever trace and sometimes even say that it didn’t exist – that if I would evaluate it, if I believe that God got the 100% cerebral capacity that He’s everywhere, but the fact still remains that there are still no one, that even I, can’t prove that He really does exist.

 And it was then so clear to me that the idea of the word “Faith” started to bubble-up. 

And since I started to open up the word “Faith” I would just like to share this story, a story just before I noticed and watched the movie, and as I recall it where it still clear in the back of my mind about a certain idea and concept that I formulated and distinguished for quite some time and already been shared in some of the youth here in our place about the word “Faith”. In which I told them that, for me, the whole universe was created because of Faith, the water, the air and even the earth was also created because of Faith and we, the human being, was also created because of faith – that through faith, we have God, we have religion and we have life. 

Remember, we know that apple is an apple because we tend to believe and we tend to have faith that a red heart-shaped fruit that taste sweet and crunchy is an apple and not a grape. And we should also remember that through faith, we know that man is not a woman and woman is not a man that we have differences and we have our own needs as a different human being. That in the end, as I always tell my friends and the people that used to listen to every words that I say that they must know their Faith because if they will do that, there will be no doubts and no worries that will surely goes into their system. And if you will really wear the word “Faith”, you will easily see yourself, your needs and your capacity as a human and as a believer. 

That hopefully, everyone will see this one great masterpiece of Luc Besson (the writer and director of the movie) and also the lessons of the movie that the creator, the staff, the production and the whole team wants to share with all wide of audiences that would possibly see it in theatres or in their home that in my own conclusive point, everyone would still end up in asking themselves; am I a believer of faith or am I a believer of knowledge? 

Trailer of the Movie: Lucy

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The Movie that Disappoint Me the Most

At the beginning of this blog, I already been mentioned the kind movie that I really like. But this time, I would give you the movie that disappoints me the most.

Just recently, the movie Annabelle was already been showing to the cinemas and right after I heard that Annabelle already reaches the Philippines, I must admit, I was one of those who truly wanted to see it on a big screen.

After a week, I was then have a chance to see the movie and I was truly disappointed - I was actually fell asleep as I watched it - Yes! I fell asleep, imagine how boring that movie is.

Why I can tell its boring? Well you can consider the following:

1. Cinematography - for me, Annabelle has a weaker cinematography than the one it was first seen in the movie "Conjuring". I would maybe love to see Annabelle if the cinematography is a little vintage (just like in Conjuring)
2. Story Telling - To be honest, at this point, I don't like how did the Director made Annabelle, the story-telling was not that clear and I could find it very normal that nothing really special on it and again, boring.
3. Plot - the plot was okay, it's just like any other things that was possessed by a demon but I tell you, "Child's Play" is a lot better than Annabelle.
4. Characters - the Characters of this movie was okay, nothing special on them most especially the lead actress. She really pissed me off! Like she ruined the whole movie. I'm not an actor or anyone who play a role in any movie but I know how to look at an actress if she really know how to act but in Annabelle lead actress case - I tell you, she really don't know how to act. Just imagined on the most terrifying scene in the movie where she was attacked by Annabelle, Oh my God! It seems that there was a lizard fell from her. She was too far from the woman who play a mother in the movie "Insidious" and "The Conjuring". How I wish any of those lead actress from the two movies was picked by the Director.
5. The whole movie itself - I don't know but this movie really disappoints me! I expect more, like I wanted to be scared more and not lying on a chair and sleep!

The reason maybe why I was so affected and disappointed its because I expect too much. And I thought the Director would do the same or do better than the masterpieces of James Wan. And one thing that really make me expect that it will be great is when I saw the name of James Wan as one of those producers.


I guess I already make myself okay now that I wrote this but no offense to the Director and the Lead Actress.

If you saw Annabelle and you disagree with me then I'm interested to read your comment just below this post or you can send me through email at : orlantabuadajr90@gmail.com

Hope you have a great day ahead :)

God Bless :)