My Faith

All my life, I wasn't sure with the decisions that I made. Whatever comes, whatever happens, it was miscalculated. But even if I'm a person who don't care about the risks, I still have the courage and the strength to face the results made by my decisions.

Ridiculously, I was stuck with my decision - the decision of being alone, empty and selfishness. It was hard, very hard but I chose this life, so miserable but it push me from behind.

To be honest, my heart is in pain, looking at the experiences that I had before, laughing with my friends, showing smile with them and letting myself being free but now that I'm alone, where should I position myself? In the ground? Or in the darkest side of my room? Where is that happiness and Where is that smile?

Though I'm not that complete, no clear visions of my life and no clear path that I'm taking over - I still know that I can find the greatest success of my journey.

My Faith and my Devotion will be my bridge to become a better person for myself and for all the people who believes in me.

I must admit, I'm not strong and  most of all not brave but I think my wisdom and knowledge would be the key for me to find myself and live in the place that God has given me.

I'm not perfect but I'm a survivor. Because despite of all the negative thoughts and learning that I have in the back of my mind, there are still positive glimpse of my history that could be the source of all the strength that I have in my body.

And I'm grateful with all of my loss and offer all of my blessings because through this, I will be able to open a single part of me that will somehow change the way I think to all the beautiful and sad things that are happening to my life.

I must be strong - we must be strong! 

And for all the people who read this post, I admire and thank you because this post is not only the emotions that I want to share with you, indeed, it is the reflection that I see in myself as a young man and a young believer of God - lots of negative but still focus on the positive side of it :)

If you don't feel this right now, you are lucky but when it happens, always remember that there are people beside you who always be there to make you happy. But if you can't see any, then just look at the heaven and free yourself to offer your life to HIM and HE will never disappoint you.

Always Remember,

God Loves Us :)


Thank you for reading and enjoy watching the video that I attached in here :)


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Orlan :)